Nothing but everything

I want to blog. Really I do. But right now I am exhausted. I thought today would be a good day to blog because I wasn't on campus until 11pm. But instead I cooked dinner will 9:30pm watched 2 episodes of House on hulu and am now staring at my computer falling asleep. But I did want to share my top 5 cool things that are happening/have happened this week...

1. Had over 90 students come to large group for a another week in a row!
2. Got to have coffee with my new friend Maruxa today
3. I made a yummy pinterest recipe for dinner
4. My friend Melissa go us tickets to see Wicked tomorrow afternoon!
5. Friday I am on a plane to San Jose for my friend Sabrina's wedding!!!

There is much more I could say, but I really am about to fall asleep!

Good night world.

Decisions and Static Cling

Sometimes decisions can be detrimental. They make me crazy. I get anxious and fidgety. I hate being indecisive. But alas it happens. But not anymore, well at least not for this decision. I made mention in my last blog that I have decided to stay in Austin and with InterVarsity. Since making this decision a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel free, happy, passionate and at peace. Sure there are some parts that feel a twinge bittersweet but the sweetness is outweighing the bitter.

There is something about making a decision that is empowering, emboldening and enlightening. The answer sits before you, you know what you should do and when you reach out for it, grab it and say, This is it - it just feels right.

Making this decision has made me turn to the Lord even more. Every morning I've been waking up mostly with out my alarm. I love this. I love awaking gently and wanting to get up with out being shocked out of sleep by some annoying technological devise that is trying to rule my life. Every morning I've sat up slowly, told Jesus good morning and gone straight into prayer. It's not even conscience, it just happens. I think my heart, mind and soul are just longing for a little more of God and it's been so good.

This little, simple morning routine is changing the way I see my day, the way I do my work, the way I interact with people. I don't want to lose this. I pray I wouldn't lose this.

I pray it would stick with me like my clothes stuck together this morning. Sigh...I transition...

So, do you remember the commercial where the girl had on a cute skirt with a sock stuck on the back. It was a commercial for Bounce. I use bounce. I love dryer sheets and fabric softener. I've never been with out it. My mom has a list of alternative for dryer sheets hanging up in her laundry room at home. But this morning I had no dryer sheets. I should have asked Munirah to borrow her fabric softener. But I thought, it'll be fine. I wish I had remembered the commercial then. I knew something was wrong when I pulled one thing out of the dryer and three other things came with it. I knew something was wrong when I heard gentle crackling in my clothes. Oh the sound of static electricity. If I were an elementary school teacher who was getting ready for a lesson this would have been exciting, but it wasn't and I'm not. I guess I need to put dryer sheets or fabric softener on my grocery list...which by the way is filling up with food items for recipes found on Pintrest...but that's for another entry.

Good bye 2011, Hello 2012

Here it is, 2012. Can you believe how quickly 2011 went by. It seems like yesterday I was ringing in the New Year in Tampa with friends...oh wait, that was yesterday...I guess it's an annual thing now, hope to keep up the tradition. This year I got to dance the night away with Michael Jackson and a little bubbly...the sparkling cider kind that is. The Michael Jackson Experience kept us movin and groovin the night away. Too bad I left my camera in the car.
I spent time yesterday reflecting month by month on what happened in 2011. There were some joyous moments: Redeeming conversation with an old boyfriend, Road trip with Karisse, Poland, time with family and friends, hosting and directing our regions first Black student conference. Some hard times: My Aunt Corine passing in January, Papaw passing in September, Rough time with roommates and friends, serious spiritual attack and a lot of doubt and anxiety with work.
Over all, it was a year of very mixed emotions. Some real highs and some real lows. But I wouldn't change anything because I'm realizing that God sets everything up for a reason and there is a chance to learn in grow. Whether in moments of laughter or tears there is something significant happening.

In 2012 I have two hopes.
1. That I would fully embrace the season that I'm in and be settled in God's will for me to be in Austin for the next 3 years.
2. I would become more fully aware of my gifts, talents and flaws and work on them in order to become more fully who I am.

I could say I want to eat better, work out more, explore more of Austin, spend more time with Jesus and even fall in love and get married in 2012, find the perfect community to live with, travel more, work to be fully funded, etc.  If I had resolutions those would be on there, however realistic or unrealistic they may be. But the bottom line is I want 2012 to be a year of days. Taking each day at a time learning to fall more in love with Jesus, asking him to guide me, shed light where light needs to shine and trusting Him more. It is said that if I seek first His Kingdom everything else falls into place. So Lord, your face I seek.